Deadline

I know it’s sick and you don’t care
My normal day is more and more rare
I wanna scream, howl, yank or just cry
I'm on the battlefield and I'm going to die
Another day of defeats and deterioration
Ultimately run out of determination

I'm burned out and don't wanna see hope
I don't know what to do, how can I cope
Soothing knife, balmy razor or reassuring rope
I know it isn't good way to fade away, elope
Self-destruction is my psychedelic dope
I'm in darkness and I can only roam grope

But I know there is a Light, deliverance
God, why are You giving me another chance?
I don't deserve... I stumble and still fall down
I'm weak and too many times use to disown
Why are You so Merciful, why do You forgive
When I can't even whole-heartedly believe?

suicide